Sunday, May 11, 2014

Mom

To Mom.

You've been out of town for the past few Mothers Days and I don't quite feel like I've been able to make it up to you, so I'll try do so here...

I've done some silly things in life, some pretty great things too - All of them would not have been possible without you and your support.

You stuck up for me even when you knew I was wrong. 
You believed in me even though you knew what I may be doing was silly or fruitless.
You helped me get the things I needed for my hundreds of "brilliant" life ideas, even though you knew most of them would end up collecting dust in a corner somewhere.
You've always been proud.
You've always forgiven me.
You put me in my place when I needed a reality check, had you not, I don't know where I would be now.
Although I'm all grown up (I think) you still make me feel like the little boy who always looked to you for answers and understanding. I will always.

As I sit here a "grown man" sobbing while I write this, I can't thank you enough for the person you have made me. 
There are so many aspect of my personality that I am so proud to be able to say come from you. I will do my best to always share the great knowledge you have shared with me. 
You are the only person in the world who can bring me back down to size and make me see just how small I really am in the grand scheme of things. When I think my world is the only thing that matters you are sure to let me know that it is not. 

I know I don't show you the appreciation I always should. You may think these things don't cross my mind, but they do. Every day. Every day I think of how I could have done things better and how I can do things better in future, I just want to make you proud. Every day I hurt from the things I could have done for you but never did.

You are beautiful. You are special. You are my guardian angel. You are my mother.

I love you.